This morning the midwife came by for a routine visit, and after measuring blood pressure etc. she tried to find baby's heartbeat but was unable to locate it. Could have been nothing, but as baby's movements in the last two weeks were very few and sporadic, we all thought that this could be the end of it.
She arranged a scan for this afternoon, and as DH was in Wton for work I went with DH's mom. It became immediately clear that there was no movement or heartbeat and that baby was gone. Baby passing away is quite the shock as this is the end of the road we took almost 7 months ago, but it came not totally unexpected at the same time, and it possibly saves us from a truckload of trouble and very difficult decisions, so there's also quite some relief.
DH is arranging flights to get back from Wton tonight, so that we can have a conversation tomorrow with our midwife on the next steps, which will be labour and delivery to get the baby out. That'll be quite a painful process I imagine, literally and emotionally. Luckily that'll happen here in Nelson at the hospital, no need to go to Wton anymore. After that we'll start with a clean slate, and hopefully take that holiday we were planning to take as I think we could use it.
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